As a follow-up to an earlier post, Wendy Darling Said Goodbye, I find myself now looking to the future. As you know, once Peter Pan's beloved Wendy returned to London, having mothered the Lost Boys well, she moved out of the nursery and into her big girl room. On the cusp of 40, with my youngest boy now six years old, I find myself transitioning out of the nursery as well.
Last week I spoke to a group of women about the maturing we do in Christ over the various seasons of our female lives. "When my focus is on trusting God in the season He presently has me in," I shared, "I am not so easily thrown by the trials that await me there. There is something transcendent, steady, and sure about Trusting God to be God. I feel that this lesson, just recently learned, is a stepping stone to maturity. With forty now 10 days away, I think it's about time I put my big girl panties on (spiritually speaking,) and start trusting God more! " That is exactly what I want to do in this new season of my life as a mom, a wife, and a follower of Christ - at home, in my community, and on this blog.
As my children continue to grow up, my role will keep changing as well. That's why I find myself growing out of the nursery and into a new room, a new space, and a new season. Here at Love Covers a Multitude of Sons, that new room may eventually become a new site with a new name. With my toes on the entry line, and my heart eager for something new, I feel inspired to Reinvent Wendy Darling.
My reinvention will likely begin with more writing - Some will be shared here, and some will be on bigger projects I've been conceptualizing for years - even during hours of nursing and swinging babies at the park, during homeschooling, and teaching boys to tie their shoes. Today I am a guest at Christy Nueman's blog, The Write Season, sharing tips on balancing a writer's inspired life with the reality of a busy family life. My main point echoes the name of her blog, there is a Write Season; and I believe this new season is mine. And so, as I look from the nursery to the future, I hope to open up those archives of notes I've collected over these mothering years, and start writing the books and screenplays I've imagined.
Stepping out of the nursery also requires stepping out of my comfort zone. I recently questioned if I have a boundary line separating what is comfortable and uncomfortable for me, because so much of what I do is deemed uncomfortable for others. Then I realized that promoting what I write and when I speak is terribly uncomfortable for me, and way outside of my comfort zone. It makes me physically sick. And so this next season, this "Write Season" needs to include learning the fine art of social media and promotion. (Gag. Even the word promotion makes me sick to my stomach!) However, when women ask me how they can stay connected with me on my blog or attend future speaking engagements, I shrink back and stutter awkwardly. Putting on my big-girl panties (a.k.a.maturing) requires me to get over it! When my boys believe lies about themselves, we repeat together what is true and noble and right. Now it's my turn; God made for His pre-purposed good works (Ephesians 2:10), He inspires me (Psalm 65:8 ),and has promised to finish what He has begun in and through me (Philippians 1:6).
For the time being my writing here at Love Covers a Multitude of Sons will stay the same, though I hope to be moving into my big girl room sometime this Summer. Here's to the future!
Behold, the former things have come to pass, Now I declare new things; Before they spring forth
I proclaim them to you. See, I am doing a new thing! Now it springs up; do you not perceive it?
I am making a way in the wilderness and streams in the wasteland. (Isaiah 42:9 & 43:19)